Once Again

break ups. they suck. i HAD this boyfriend that was absolutely amazing. would tell me anything i wanted to hear. and i didn't even have to tell him to say that stuff. he knew what i wanted to hear. i guess that could have been the first clue to knowing he was a move-on kind of guy. i mean... gah. he broke up with me over text! what the crap??? it was so sudden. like he had a thought that it wouldn't hurt my feelings or anything. maybe i'm over thinking this. but i know im not. i hate to hurt like this. to have these feelings about myself. i feel so insecure and horrible. why couldn't he have just called me and explained it to me why. oh here's the best part now. i ask him why and he tells me I can't tell you. AGAIN. WHAT THE CRAP???? are you serious? we've been friends forever! even if im not your girlfriend anymore he could of at least told me as his best friend. pathetic. sadly. i still care for him alot. i haven't cried... yet. but just the fact that he won't tell me this little detail of why our whole relationship failed, it makes me feel so insecure. like im just not good enough for him. just pathetic. once again. i'm single. and all i can do now is listen to Ashes and Wine by A Fine Frenzy. just describes my whole entire emotional world here. the first line is DOn't know what to do anymore. exactly how i feel. i was so happy before that horrible hour of denial and fate. and once again. I'm left alone. without the respect of myself. Once again.